Hi friends! Hope that you all are enjoying your Saturday morning. Carsten is off with daddy and grandma to breakfast and I decided to stay behind to get a few things done.
I wanted to share a little bit about our baby girl this morning. It is funny and sad at the same time how we seem to do less for baby #2 than baby #1. For instance, I threw a big gender reveal party for Carsten, but didn’t for baby girl. Just little things like that I guess. One thing that I do want to do with her that I did not do with Carsten, is get professional photos done…maternity and newborn. I think I can at least manage that. 😛
I also want to make sure that I document as much as I can about her. This pregnancy is absolutely flying by and I know that there is no way that I will ever remember it unless I write it down.
I seriously do that all the time!
Let’s start with how she came to be.
Haha! I’m not going into that much detail!
So, I have said this on numerous occasions, but it is so interesting how the path of life changes through the years. As I mentioned in my previous post, despite the fact that I once lacked the mothering desire…now…I am craving it. I love being a mother so much that it is quiet overwhelming. When Craig and I decided to start a family, we…mostly me…was certain that we would only have one child. Then, that magical thing called a mothers love happened and now I just want all the babies! It was only when Carsten turned one that I began thinking that I might like to add another. I’ve heard it said before, “Your first baby is so good and they trick you into making you think you want another one.” I don’t really think that is the case with me. Carsten was a horrible sleeper. He didn’t want to sleep for the first 6 months of his life. Nursing was so hard and we struggled a lot with that. I was an emotional wreck that first year. Even now, I wouldn’t consider Carsten an “easy” child. I don’t even know what that is supposed to mean. All that I know is that he is so perfectly imperfect…just like the rest of us…and I love him something fierce. Oh…I know what is ahead for us. You needn’t say, “Oh, you just wait until you have your second child. You’re life is really about to change.” Thanks for the heads up, but I think we will figure it out.
I digress again…oops.
Adding on to our desire to growing our family was watching how Carsten interacts with other children. He LOVES his cousins and even random kids at play places. I want him to have his own special friend…that person who is bonded to him by blood and love. It may not work out that way…I know, but I refuse to speak that over my family. I will admit that it always annoyed the heck out of me when people would say, “He needs a brother or a sister.” That is one of those things to add to the list of ‘Things Not To Say To a Mother.” That is a very personal choice and no one should ever encroach on that matter. In my own case, one of my concerns was my age. In other cases, maybe they had a hard time with the pregnancy and delivery and they aren’t able to conceive again. Maybe they do want another and can’t. Just be careful with your words and “advice”. You never know what people are going through.
Oh my gosh…this mommy brain is all over the place this morning!
Craig and I had been talking about it for a while. Finally, November rolled around and we just decided to go for it. I wasn’t getting any younger and who knew how long it might take. Here comes December. December 10th to be exact. I was enjoying a glass of wine and then I got a weird feeling. I thought, “what if?” So, I took a test and it was negative…and then I enjoyed another glass of wine. Haha! So, the next day…again…that weird feeling came back. I decided to take another test and the faintest line appeared. First word that came out of my mouth was…
I just couldn’t believe it. The craziest part…I kept it to myself.
The next day, I took another test…the one that actually says ‘PREGNANT’ or ‘NOT PREGNANT.’ There was no denying it. It read ‘PREGNANT.’
My whole being was filled with excitement, but for some reason I couldn’t bring myself to tell Craig. I confided in one friend who I knew would keep my secret and hid it from my husband for 2 whole weeks. I wanted it to be the biggest surprise ever and I decided to wait until Christmas day to tell him. You guys…I faked my menstrual cycle!!! I know that it probably sounds crazy, but he keeps up with that stuff and I knew that he would figure it out real fast if I didn’t. Sorry…if that’s TMI, but it’s hilarious to me and I know this will bring a smile to our faces later on down the road.
So, Christmas day rolls around and I save the very best present for last. It is addressed to Carsten and I let Craig help him open it. He opens it and finds a little shirt that says “Big Brother”. It takes Craig a minute, but when it finally clicks he just couldn’t believe it. He was so excited and I was happy to finally let the cat out of the bag. Can you believe that I meant to record the whole event and I didn’t even hit the button? Darn it!
Then, we had to keep the secret for a couple of more months and at Carsten’s birthday party in February, we revealed our secret the same way by letting Carsten open the shirt as a present in front of our family. Their reactions were the best!
I know this post is getting quiet lengthy. God bless you for making it this far!
A quick note about the first trimester. Just like with Carsten, I did not have any morning sickness. Yaaaay! What I had the most was fatigue. This girl was T.I.R.E.D. I feel like God was looking out for me, because Carsten has been on a run of taking an average of 3 hour naps the past 6 months and without those long naps… Yikes! I napped every single day with him and it was gloriously life saving.
Moving on the the second trimester. For the first few weeks, I began getting terrible headaches. They were like no other headache that I have ever had and the doctor said that they were hormonal. Yay.
The headaches finally cleared up and my hormones were quick to remind me that they were still large and in charge. The emotions started to set in.
I remember when I was pregnant with Carsten, I would get angry a lot. I would lose my **** in 0.2 seconds. This time around, it’s more sadness that I feel. I just think about one sad thing and I’m crying. More often, I think about so many good things that make me happy and it makes me cry for the rest of the day. It’s so ridiculous and a tad bit annoying that they are uncontrollable, but it’s a real thing and they are there so we just have to deal with them the best way that we know how…including a lot of coming to Jesus moments.
We found out we were having a girl at around 12 weeks from the new Panorama blood test that they do now. I almost dropped my phone when she told me that it was a girl. I just knew we were going to have another little boy! We were all so very excited about our good news and of course, my mother cried. It’s her first granddaughter and so she’s going to be in heaven.
This all leads us to now. Baby girl is 20 weeks in, which means we are half way there. WHAAAT?
We had our anatomy scan this past week and all parts are present and we are praising Jesus for that! She is measuring small…the size of a 19 week baby…just like big brother did. Looks like we might be having another peanut.
I think I am doing a pretty good job at not buying ALL THE LITTLE GIRL things, but I sure do have a lot of items ‘Favorited’ on Etsy! 😉
I’ve only been craving all the carbs. That’s not so bad is it? I think that I have finally crossed that bridge or maybe it is that all of my back fat that I’ve worked so hard at getting rid of is now back and it’s just making me sick. Either way, I have started eating healthier and trying to get active again. So far, I have gained 7 pounds.
We have been trying to teach Carsten all about her, but I don’t think he quiet gets it yet. He will soon enough I’m sure!
I think this might be enough sharing for now. My family is back home and I’m going to go join them before nap time rolls around.
Wishing you many blessings and thank you for visiting!